No one talk to me; no one get near me: I can’t handle it. Lock the door so no one can come in, and no one can go out. Look in the mirror, see nothing worth looking at. Why do I look this way? Why can’t I look good? Sit and think about my life, and how there’s nothing worth living for in it. The walls are closing in, there’s nowhere left to turn, one thing left to do: end it.
Have you ever felt this way? Like there’s only one option: ending your life. I have, and it’s not something I wish upon anyone.
I was 11 years old, starting 6th grade. I wasn’t strong in my walk with Christ, and I later realized that was the problem. The first paragraph describes how I felt. At school, I focused on my work and nothing else. I went to church and didn’t soak anything in. It was like I wasn’t really living; I was just existing.
If you’ve ever felt like this, please keep reading! The only way to escape the grips of depression is God.
My pastor runs a youth camp for a week during the summer. It was there that I felt God speaking to me, calling out my name; telling me that there was a reason to keep living: Him and His plans for me.
Things didn’t immediately get better—don’t expect them to—but I did start feeling better. It was like a giant weight was lifted off my shoulders. Now, I’m fine. I’m happy. It’s great because I can see God working in my life.
I want all of you to feel the same way. Please, if you feel the way I felt: talk to God. A youth minster, pastor, or an adult that you’re close to will help. God has a plan for you! Jeremiah 29:11 says, “For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope” (NLT). Please don’t deprive yourself and the world of that plan.
I’m Haley Faye Snyder. I’ve lived in the same Christian home in Kentucky since I was born. I have one little brother and two loving parents. I go to Westport Baptist church and have my whole life. I accepted Christ into my heart when I was six and then re-committed my life to Him when I was 11 at Boones Creek Baptist Camp. (read more…)
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By Lisa M. Schab
Despite what you might have been told, the feelings of sadness and hopelessness you may be struggling with are probably not “just a phase” or “something you’ll grow out of.” As many as 20 percent of people your age have symptoms of serious depression, yet many teens and even many adults don’t recognize the signs. Only half of depressed teens get the help they need to overcome these feelings. If you’re feeling depressed, this workbook offers things you can do, both on your own and with a counselor, to feel better.
The activities in Beyond the Blues can help you cope with sad and difficult feelings, find new ways to make friends, and deal with conflicts. Little by little and on your own schedule, you can make small changes in your life that will lead you to a brighter, more enjoyable future.